Goodbye 2015. Hello 2016.
2015 will go down in my books as the year of growing pains. I honestly would not describe it any other way.
I spent an unhealthy amount of 2015 being sad and angry and disappointed with myself, when I honestly should have been so freaking proud and stupid happy. I worked so hard in school, and I graduated with honors! I had the best, last spring break I could ever ask for. Made it out to Disneyland more times than I can count on one hand. I ate SO MANY AÇAI bowls, aka my favorite icy concoction!! And I decided that I don’t want to eat animals anymore.
But all this was overshadowed by the fact that I haven’t found my “big girl” job yet. Yes, it’s as pathetic as it sounds. But I honestly still get anxious just thinking about it. Twenty-something angst is a thing. However, in retrospect, I realise now that the universe owes me nothing.
I don’t ever want to lead a life where everything is handed to me on a silver platter. Why I thought that I deserved such VIP treatment beats me. My family and my friends work so hard, and I admire each and every one for making it all look easy.
All that being said, I am still in the process of figuring it out. And I hope to continue in this journey of personal growth.
I aspire to be someone who can truly be proud of themselves. Someone who can see beauty in everything. Someone who knows how to live life and can enjoy the ride. Those are my goals for this upcoming year.
I don’t want to feel sad anymore. I wasted too much time last year pitying myself because I had so much newfound time on my hands. But I want this year to be different.
Hello 2016, I’m ready for you.