I’m not even going to try to make up excuses to explain the brief hiatus. I haven’t written a blogpost in two months, and it is proving difficult to even start this one.
Let’s just say, I want to get back to the basics.
One of the reasons why I started this blog (and blogging in general) is because I have always loved to write. It has continually been my preferred creative outlet. I still have old diaries and entire notebooks that I’ve filled up with anecdotes, thoughts, dreams… WORDS! Truthfully, I am terrified to read them back. There’s a lot of teen angst that went into them. Silly 16-year old stuff, understandably. But it was how I expressed myself.. Maybe I’ll open them up one day when I’m bored, just for the lols.
I have spent the first couple of months this year really pushing myself to be happier. “Pushing” has a very aggressive connotation to it, but it’s better than saying I’ve been forcing myself to be more positive. That just takes away from the fact that I am genuinely happy. A place that I thought I wouldn’t get back to until I had finally made it. Whatever in the world that means.
Then I realized that I was being ridiculous and putting all this unnecessary pressure on myself. Boy, 22 sure isn’t the upbeat, bubblegum pop song Taylor Swift made it out to be.
What I am saying is that the journey through adulthood can be extremely stressful at times. It was super important for me to take these past couple of months to sorta feed my soul. I’ve actually started to volunteer at a local animal shelter as a dog walker. Quite possibly the best hour of the week. I’ve also been more committed to eating a plant-based diet, and working out more.
My January and February has been a much needed change in mindset and attitude. It’s been spent remembering what I’ve accomplished and what I still want to accomplish. To straighten out my priorities, which just so happen to be celebrating my 16 year academic career coming to a glorious end.
Over the next 3 months, I will be basking in the Costa Rican sunshine, channeling my inner Vanessa Hudgens at Coachella, (not)crying about my Disneyland annual pass expiring, and enjoying a week in the Bay Area with a best friend. As well as my shelter dog walking responsibilities. I want the celebrations to last forever, but the plan is to start working full-time this summer.
Many things to look forward to, and I’m feeling incredibly lucky.